I Like The Ships :)

1. People on the train aren't worried about quickly getting to their destination.
2. If you smile at them, they smile back. And there's no hint of the "are you psycho?" look that I often get on planes.
3. No motion sicknesses like you get on boats or sometimes in cars. No air sickness. Just a soothing rocking motion.
4. There's no big security fuss to go through.
5. I could bring my own food and drinks! Lots cheaper than prices in airports.
6. No seat belts. I could get up at any time and stretch my legs or go to the bathroom
7. Tunnels! I'm a big fan of tunnels.
8. What made me write this post?
9. I don’t know
10. DUH!

Comfortably Numb!

I strangled noise & find quiet.
Numbers on my clock repeating

The human condition:short-lived innocence.
I drank. slept easy.breathe easy.

Betweenbrief facades/waves of dreams.
"I wish I were rich with god."(I wonder what made the man in the white suit appear on my dream to tell me Jesus loves me. How empty was my stare then)
I've become Comfortably Numb!

Its Mine... Its Yummy!

As my friends and I have evolved from teenagers, to young adults, to full fledged adults, I’ve heard the phrase “I wonder where we’ll all be in five years” too many times to count. It’s a legitimate question. I think most people are naturally curious to know what their future will hold. A new job? A new relationship? New friends? Old friends leaving? A big move? The list could go on and on depending on whom the conversation is with.

Recently, I was having one of those conversations, but when that statement came up, it had a different ring to it. It was no longer delivered with a breath of excitement, but almost a sigh of pain. The words were the same as they always were, but the underlying tone expressed what seemed like a fear of “What if nothing changes in the next five years? What if I’m in the same position five years from now that I am today? What if I’m still trying to figure out what to do with my life?”

The phrase that I’ve heard over and over stirred up new emotions in me. I suddenly felt compelled to stop hesitating and start living my life with more purpose and passion. Hearing the sadness in this persons voice motivated me to never be one of those people who talked about the future with fear, but rather with excitement and passion. Five years is a lot of time, and there are endless possibilities for what could happen in the next five years, but instead of focusing on what could happen, I dove into what has happened. I was curious to know what, if anything, has changed for me in the last five years. It was a bittersweet trip down memory lane.

I’ve grown up. I’ve learned. I’ve failed. I’ve succeeded. Most importantly, I’ve discovered that as long as I have my faith in god, I have peace. And I have a hope that amazing things will come my way. I believe that the last five years were just prep for the next five. I know that amazing opportunities are right around the corner.

All in all, the last five years have been amazing. Challenging. Refreshing. Depressing. Inspiring. Lonely. I have grown so much personally, and I would never take back any of it.

I bloody mean it!