Tuesday, December 30, 2008

The Last Week Of December.... R.I.P!


One of my good friend, Kaushicks dad passed away... One of my best friend Suresh passed away... My best friend Joels, brother passed away.... My brother/Gangai's Grand mother passed away....


All in the last 4 years and all of them in the last week of December!


I pray specially for all of them now! May thier souls rest in peace!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

For The Love Of The Game - 3


I'm Playing this years State Bowling Tourney leading upto the nationals. I sucessfully completed the first few rounds and now I'm in round of 32. I top scored with 198 and I still have a very very long way to go, keepin in mind my best score is a 224 in Singapore.


Hoping I would atleast finish top 5 in the state given the fact I play this game very very rarely compared to the pro's I rub shoulders with who have their own balls, shoes, gloes, sponsors.... whereas I bowl with a ball which is availabe in the arena and rarely/never polished with no glove or anything.


My right thumb is inactive with a blood clot, cause the ball I used yesterday was broken. Hmmp! so much for the love of the game!

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

We as kids... all wanted to be different!


"I think I'll be a clown when I get grown," said Dill. "Yes, sir, a clown.... There ain't one thing in this world I can do about folks except laugh, so I'm gonna join the circus and laugh my head off." "You got it backwards, Dill," said Jem. "Clowns are sad, it's folks that laugh at them." "Well, I'm gonna be a new kind of clown. I'm gonna stand in the middle of the ring and laugh at the folks." ~Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird

Monday, November 17, 2008

From The Ashes...


Well....


I've done it before and I have to do it again and I hope this is the last freaking time!

Monday, September 22, 2008

Hmmp! Need These Now!


Failure is the foundation of success, and the means by which it is achieved.
Lao Tzu
Be not ashamed of mistakes and thus make them crimes.
Confucius
Freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes.
– Mahatma Gandhi
Many people dream of success. To me success can only achieved through repeated failure and introspection. In fact, success represents the 1% of your work that results from the 99% that is called failure.
– Soichiro Honda
In the West, our fixation on success discourages us from risk taking because it values success over learning, and it abhors failure whether we learn from it or not.
– Parker Palmer
That which does not kill us makes us stronger.
– Marlon Brando
Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith.
– Steve Jobs, Founder, Apple Computer
I have not failed 700 times. I have not failed once. I have succeeded in proving those 700 ways will not work. When I have eliminated the ways that will not work, I will find the way that will work.
– Thomas Edison
I have learned throughout my life as a composer chiefly through my mistakes and pursuits of false assumptions, not my exposure to founts of wisdom and knowledge.
– Igor Stravinski
Once you embrace unpleasant news not as negative but as evidence of a need for change, you aren't defeated by it. You're learning from it.
– Bill Gates

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

FAITH!!!


Large fingers pushing me
Youre God and youve got big hands
Colors blend... and challenges you give me

Seek my part... devote myself
My small self... like a book against the many on the shelf
Sometimes I know, sometimes I rise

Sometimes I fall, sometimes I dont
Sometimes I cringe, sometimes I live
Sometimes I walk, sometimes I kneel
Sometimes I speak of nothing at all
Sometimes I reach to myself, dear god

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Its 3am and I want To Go Home...


Nirav,

Daddy is so bugged and stressed at work and I don’t know for what reason I am thinking a lot about you the last week when I am at work. Its like you face keeps flashing on my mind in what ever I do. I’ve never had this feeling in a long while. It was your mom who used to taunt me this way.

I have watched you grow, so far, into a very curious, healthy and intelligent boy. You have come so far and for that, I am so proud of you.

You may not understand this today, but someday you may come across this blog and this particular entry I have written to you. Much as I want to explain why I am writing this, so much I really don’t know why I am writing this too.

Dad is not playing/spending time with you and I don’t know if you can even realize it. However I feel guilty when I say bye to you when I leave. I hate to see your face when I say bye.

You are the best thing that has ever happened to us and I will never do anything to hurt you prince. I want to do a lot of things with you da, I want to play the guitar with you, I want to take you on road trips, I want to play sports with you… when I am old as you grow up I wanna say Quits with a nice wine tasting trip in napa valley!

I am really scared Nirav, I don’t know if I would make a good father, give you all that is needed, Teach you right things and raise you to be a MAN! I really don’t know.


Whatevr it is I will devote all my energies to raise you the best way I know how, I do hope I succeed. For both of our sakes.

Love you da…

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

www.placesupport.com


This is my new assignment... I am helping to set this support center with a plan to ramp it up to 600 seats in the next 6 months.

Very very challenging and tiring. I am drained and exhausted when I go to sleep every alternate days(coz I sleep every alternate days, these days) My first process went live yesterday and was very impressed with the outcome.

Keeping fingers crossed and expectations high!

Sunday, July 13, 2008

What Would You Prefer - Sheer Ecstacy, Part 2!


If you have to go down to Bangalore and come back the same day and its already 2pm, what would you do? Try your luck at the airport or take the all new Honda Civic vailable at your disposal?

I took the second option... now I want to own one!

The roads are good and call it development, yes it is. But I doubt if it is our growth... There are about a thousands of villages and few of them enroute and I guess they have no clue as to whats happening in the crazy rat race world!!!

They all are still struggling, VISIBLY! and me old, I guess... I cant feel happy about all these in equalities any more... something has to be done and I know for a fact, I am going to complete this blog and may be even forget about it and head up for a meeting!!!

The worst is, after all this I would look for a nice Civic picture to post in this post!

PS: The above reaction could be because of my watching Dr. Zhivago a 100th time the previous night :)

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Sheer Ecstacy :)


I would have seen it a hundred times now~ and I watched it today after a long time and I was awestuck and was in a another world till a small drop of tear running down my cheek distrated me :)

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Dinner @ Work!


I was working from 10 in the morning... and I have con call at 4 the next morning... which would technically make me sit in the office for 18 hours... This whole month has been this way... clocking 14 hour+ everyday.

I am working from a clients place, so they saw my spirits weakening and hence took me out for dinner at my fav place... Bella Ciao.

Nice Place, Nice Food, Nice Break from work!

Thanks guys for a great dinner and a time and a GREAT WINE!

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Dasavatharam!


1 Kamal + 9 fungus infected face kamals.

Unnecessary waste of Oscars money to prove a point. Hope he recovers it. All would say Kamal is great, blah blah, blah, honestly its a typical K S Ravikumar Flick. Masala + Defies logic + Weak Screenplay.

Its kind of getting irritating and boring to listen to Crazy mohan + Kamal's Dialogue.They should have stopped it with kadhala kadhala. 1 Kamal + a decent villain would have made this movie good, I feel. Mediocre Graphics, and trying to show butterfly effect is all non sense.

Why would you want to try acting in 10 roles, rather attempting to give a nice simple movie. Tarantino, Almodovar, Alexander Payne, Martin Sorcese all give simple yet powerful movies. Side ways, Bad Education, Resovoir dogs, all of them are simple, infact in side ways thers's only 4 characters, yet a great movie!

Movies are meant to be simple and nice and should give you a feeling to take home, rather than give you a feeling TAKE ME HOME in the middle of the movie.

One the last note, before I started from work to the movie, all of them said dont miss the first 20 mins. I had no clue what they were talking about, later I realized, yes its important coz it a freebee. I still fell the first 20 mins was a freebee short film for the audience. What a waste of my sons time!!! (his first big screen tamil movie). He rather would have enjoyed riding his cycle round the house!

GROW UP!

Saturday, May 31, 2008

People!


I was stranded in traffic in T nagar, for over an hour and half in front of a temple. Processions or some swamiji has been there and there were 100's of people waiting in the road and disrupting traffic.

WTF is your beleif system. Be it any religion.

Does it say or asks you to let go of your civic sense. Wake up guys, its high time.

Indiana Jones!


Went to mayajaal yesterday to watch a movie, the only movie available, which was decent enuf to watch was Indiana Jones. Typical, speilberg movie, defies logic, defies everything.

Harrison Ford could hardly walk, It was like he was limping throughout the movie... Old age.

Moral of the movie: If you are a super hero or if you are indian Jones, you, your family and friends would never ever get fucking hurt. Be it a high speed collosion, flight crash, or if your car falls into a water falls, which is as big as 'The Niagra' or if you are beaten black and blue by another able guy, all you got to do is get up and dust your shirt off.

Had fun!

Thursday, May 22, 2008

The Lives Of Others...



My wife and I went to see this movie yesterday and were really impressed. didnt expect a packed auditorium, however 30% of the crowd left before interval and the remaining 70% after the end of the movie, stood up, clapped, and left with immense satisfaction of watching a great movie.

I 've never seen so many people standing up together and clapping for a movie. it was nice!

Das Leben der Anderen (2006) (The Lives of Others) was brilliantly written and directed by Florian Henckel von Donnersmarck. The film is a taut thriller. It's also a dramatization of what happened in East Germany--and could happen here--if we allow the government access to every aspect of our lives. Ulrich Mühe stars as Hauptmann Gerd Wiesler of the Stasi--the dreaded secret police. The Captain is so talented in interrogation that he gives lectures on interrogation techniques to Stasi cadets.

For complex reasons, Wiesler is investigating a prominent couple-- Christa-Maria Sieland, a beautiful and talented actor (Martina Gedeck), and Georg Dreyman (Sebastian Koch) an accomplished author and playwright.

Artists in East Germany were strictly controlled by the state. Some of them played an intricate cat-and-mouse game with the Stasi--going just far enough to attract notice, but not so far as to bring about arrest. The problem with the cat-and-mouse game was that the cats had very sharp teeth, which they didn't hesitate to use. Blacklisting was just one of the state's weapons--a single word from a high official and you never acted again, or your plays or music were never performed. Although both Christa-Maria and Georg have been careful and discrete, they haven't been careful and discrete enough to escape the Stasi's interest.

The movie, although in color, looks as if it were shot in black and white. The mood and the locations are drab and muted. Obviously, the color reflects the political and social situation of the time. The camerwork and editing were outstanding. Every other aspect of the film is equally excellent, particularly the work of the supporting actors.

Not only does this film represent a riveting thriller, but it provides a powerful political message. After you've seen The Lives of Others, you won't keep quiet when someone tells you "I don't care if the government taps my phone; I've got nothing to hide."

This is an extraordinary film--well acted and directed, with a compelling plot and message. Das Leben der Anderen is the finest movie I've seen this year. It's definitely worth seeking out.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

In The Second Over...


I always liked him! Such a level headed and a good free flowing batsman. He is struggling now. Third over against Mumbai Indians... want him to do well...

* Update: He didnt! :(

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Remember what morals always taught you...



There is no shortcut to success!

There has been lots said about Questnet and I've been contemplating as to if I should post about it! But what the heck, let me just write!

For the last decade or so there have been hundreds of guys who have asked me to part of some Multi Level Marketing thing, incl. the much coveted Amway. I have seen People gaining as well losing in these things. Infact one of a close relative is part of Quest net. He claims to have made money, and hence most of the other relatives followed him to join. They’ve not made a penny. They were hoping too, but with this scandal out, I guess they never will. This, this FU#$%^G reason is why I hate MLM.

They guys whom I mentioned to have made money works for a software giant and does this part time. And the others, who followed him, are people who are trying to make ends meet. Irony! But these pyramid models work this way I guess, the classic economic theory – The rich become richer and poor become poorer.

I hate MLS’s because:

- I believe there is no shortcut to success.
- Money isn’t every thing.
- Don’t want to make the already rich richer.
- It breaks relationships, many a times!
- Most of it is CON

To sum it all, I would rather beg to con people, break trust and relationship to make money!

Thursday, May 08, 2008

HTC Touch !!!

First post from my PDA... hope it works!

Thanks Vic!



While I was in Bangalore, Vic, a good friend took me to hard rock café and to OPUS for dinner and beer.

I had so much fun downing a lotse of beer after a long time. I remember between me and Vic we’ve downed more than 20 bottles of beer in Kathmandu. This was more like a repeat.

The best part was it was karaoke night, it was their yearly competitions. Had 10 odd participants and all of them sang so well. I mean they sang every thing from BB king to Pearl Jam to The Corrs. All of them were just too great. I am supporting this girl Roodika! Vic promised to call and let me know about finals so I could be there with Pinky and have some more fun!

Go Roodika Go!

Money Talks!



I was in Bangalore last week. I didn’t fly to Bangalore as it makes no sense to me. My home from airport is an hour drive and check in 1 hour and as always the regular flight delays 1 hour and the flying time an hour and the drive to Cantonment where I had to go is another 1.5 hours with Bangalore traffic, which is 5.5 hours. Whereas if take a train, preferably shatabdi, I would reach in 5 hours net!

I didn’t book my tickets as the WL was 178 something. I went early, was waiting for the TTR, as soon as he came I saw a lot of people surrounding him, for places. The AC attendant came and asked me to sit inside and asked me 250 more, I gladly agreed and I sat, remember I had only an open ticket, not valid in shatabdi. After a while say 2 hour later the TTR came took 250 from me and I reached Bangalore.

I felt very very guilty doing it though. Not that I bribed to get things done, but I saw a lot of people who had WL tickets failing to get in. felt so guilty to make this decision.

I WILL NEVER USE MONEY AS A TOOL TO GET AHEAD OF PEOPLE!

Friday, April 11, 2008

Its Been Long!


The doctors induced labor on her because she was losing ambiotic fluid and they began to worry about her and the baby. They kept her in the hospital the whole day and started administering the labor-inducing drug since morning.

I was scared shitless. I wanted to be there to hold her hand and comfort her through a difficult time. She was hooked up to a fetal monitor and everything looked okay until the doctor came in for about the fourth time to up the dosage of the GET THE BABY OUT drug.

Things got ugly after that. She lost a lot of the liquid and it was time to get Nirav out of the belly. Evidently, I .read it some where… when that happens, a woman experiences incredible pain

That doctor cut my darling’s sweet tummy.

Nirav was fine. She was fine. I was staggering around as if I had been drinking in a bar all day. I was exhausted. I felt like a wrung-out dishrag. She looked better than I felt.

Both families were out in the hallway waiting to see the new youngun and I finally carried Nirav outside. Got-damn! That must have been a traumatic experience! Spend nine months in the warm darkness of mama's belly, and then be thrust into bright light with about 20 strangers pawing at you all at once. No wonder Nirav cried like a (*&^%&^%

He got over it. He is growing up to be a fine boy.

I never will forget that day.

Monday, January 21, 2008

?


28 years down the road,
In this journey known as life,
Gone through different moments,
Both bitter and sweet…

Yet I still wander aimlessly,
Not knowing the answer,
To the most important question of all times,
Who I really am?

Inside of me, the desires of all mankind,
To be good in everything I do,
Never considering my capabilities,
Nor my responsibilities.

Blood of a single man runs through my body,
But desires of a million dash through my mind,
Such immaturity I find within myself,
Yet I can’t help but to embrace it all