Wednesday, May 13, 2020

Off he goes, Off I go!

Taking sometime off from a busy 5 days to get riffbook off the ground... shut the laptop and streaming music... yeah... all of Vedder, Kurt and Lou reed and this one pops up!
This song is about me an my brother.
I was a high strung guy...going from idea to another idea... success to failure and failure to success over the past 20 years...changing jobs frequently...living by the seat of my pants.
My brother is the opposite...same job since college...he'll live in the same house for the rest of his life...very cool, calm and laid back.
I imagine my brother wrote this song for me...possibly to try to coax me into slowing down, settling down, and coming down to Earth.
And at the end of the song, just when he thinks that I have slowed down..."I was off again."

Friday, May 01, 2020

Locked Down with the Parents!



The house is empty with 2 people. A Void that fills their eyes and space. "The house is always silent" They take turns in the kitchen to cook/clean. There's always some leftover rice and curry on the counter, cant cook that little! One doesn't eat, One finds it hard to chew the bones!
One of the walls in the living room used to have photographs of divine mercy and the lady of good health. They have now been replaced with colorized ones of the young children of the house growing up. The old man shows it off to visitors. The old lady always has something to say when she passes by the picture collage, The old man nods from behind the newspaper. After all, Life thrives around the poloroid ruins, that are dissolving in time.
I realize, they have forgotten how to smile and I do make my jokes, yet be cautious to not breach the barricades they have built around, Im not going to stick around here for long!
The mood is progressively pervasive. I realize this is how some hearts break. Slowly. Silently.
'Saudade'
Thats how they ended up. Indulging in lost time or silently waiting.
Now, wait a second, "Am I not just a shadow of their feeling?" To live between the spaces of dark and happy is a mystery!
I guess that this is how some hearts beat. Slowly. Silently.