Life... ugh. Emotions, thought, feelings, it's all so complicated. It seems especially so for me, and especially lately. But I think I'm getting better at being me and taking a look at and into myself, and coming to conclusions. We'll see where I end up.
I am coming up with a new lifestyle magazine, Helices in less than two weeks. It's so scary and exciting at the same time. Man. I’ve wanted to do this for 6 years and while I am at it I bloody well do it well. Forget all the groundwork, I have to launch it in 15 days...That's so ducking soon, and it's so ducking scary. And I can't wait!!
Right now I’m experiencing some severe bumps in the career road and I'm working on proving things to myself and I think I’m making steps in the right direction, but it's hard to tell. Its hard for me to read my own decisions sometimes. I look forward to seeing how this venture would turn out.
The last few days has been very low key. But it's been good. It's given me time to really work. Sometimes that's so much better than getting drunk in a bar! It's also given me a LOT of time to relax, take it easy, and have some introspection. Which has been nice, and (I think) very helpful.
I have quit smoking and it has been a couple of weeks now. The Nico withdrawal is really bad than I expected migraines, anxiety, anger... Gosh! I hope I never touch that stick again.
My life is a roller coaster. Scary, up and down, exhilarating, exciting, and unpredictable. You just never quite know where you're going or where you'll end up.
mmmmmmmP!
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