Masked lives...

When can we live in a world free from masks???

Looking at my own life, I strongly believe that everyone in this world is living with a mask on. We never see the true self of others, or may be we never want to show our true face to others. Not just the others, most of us are afraid of facing the real us. Isn't it ironic that we are living in a world that is not so real after all?

I see a lot of people, who wear a smile mask, a sorry face mask, always tensed mask, it’s something which we pick up when we grow up? I don’t know how we all pick it up, inspired by somebody? I don’t have a clue. I really don’t have!

For me to write about it is because I have a confession to make. I wear a mask too. Always being someone who seems to be happy in life; I must say I'm living behind a mask. I realize I wear this mask all the time, me at home, at work, with my friends, with my fiancé every where I go and everybody I be with. I wear this mask telling the whole world that I have no complaints about anything. I wear this mask so often that we feel so comfortable and don’t even realize that I don’t even wear one, and only when it itches I realize.

I always believed happiness is meant to be shared but not sadness. It sometimes is dis heartening when you want to share your happiness, there are people who will be negative about it, saying you are such a show off!!! Well may be I show off because I have something to show and if you don’t have anything to freaking show… well let me be polite… bugger off!!! It’s a different topic all together to blog about.

And at times, when my mask itches I say to myself “Not that it is not bad” because I just can't bear to bring sadness to people around me. I remember telling someone that why I shouldn’t affect people with my sadness therefore, I always put on a smile mask. This is something my fiancé fights with me most of the time when something seriously goes bad. She screams “Why can’t you just open up and share it with me?” and my standard answer is “I don’t know… I really can’t do it!” I believe my troubles are mine and will never involve people in it because they shouldn’t be troubled of my troubles as they would have their own fair share of troubles to deal with… I guess

And the other reason is I hate to advices especially if I’m on the receiving end. They never help! It just puts me off sometimes.

Well, if you ask me does it help? End of the day, it doesn't help me in chasing that sadness away; the worst result is that it actually deepen the sadness in me.

With so many exaggerated people around faking themselves, like me, how can we know what's real. It will be even funnier if we say that it is definitely real, when we can't be certain that we are real ourselves.

It would be so judgmental and naïve of me to say that we all should strive or work toward living a mask free life, because these masks have become the one like the oxygen ones to us, it’s a harsh reality, hence all I could hope is…

When can we live in a world free from masks???